Sunday, February 8, 2015

When It Was Quiet


Mark 1:32-39

 

        Ever have one of those days that you get out of bed and are already behind? At noon you wish you could stop for lunch but you have barely managed to catch up with the stuff from yesterday.  You are afraid to check your e-mail because you know, “you have mail” and the only reason your cell phone isn’t ringing is because you forgot to charge the batteries. When I read the Gospel of Mark, I get the impression this was the way Jesus spent his life. It seems as if every other verse begins with the word, “Immediately.”  Immediately Jesus healed the sick; immediately Jesus went to the next town; immediately Jesus called the disciples around him.  Everything in the life of Jesus happened immediately and it happened often. Even after sunset Jesus was still about the business of healing the sick and offering a word of comfort to those with restless souls. He must have been exhausted by the time he would finally lay down to sleep. Yet early each morning, before the sunrise, Jesus would go out into the darkness, find a quiet place and spend time in prayer.

        If you have raised children, you have prayed for a quiet place.  If you were a teacher, I know you prayed for a quiet moment. If your job seems to have no beginning or no end, I suspect you have prayed for a quiet release. And those of you who have retired and have “all the time in the world,” now that you have the time, do you actively and intentionally seek out a quiet place to pray?

        I am often told prayer is one of those things we should be able to do any time, any place. Folks tell me they often pray on their way to work. If they are driving I hope for the sake of others they pray with their eyes open. Some folks pray…when they are on exercise machines…, in the midst of a lot of heavy breathing…, with  TVs directly overhead. Some folks like to pray when they are swimming.  I can understand that. When I swim my prayer is always, “Don’t let me drown.” Are we really praying if our time of prayer is delegated to moments when we are doing something else? Yes, we are killing two birds with one stone but is it any wonder it seems God seldom responds to prayer? Maybe God refuses to compete with the TV or the rhythm of our feet. Maybe God doesn’t like to raise God’s voice.  Maybe God demands quietness.

        Early in the morning, Jesus went out to find a quiet place to pray. I have never accepted the excuse that one is too busy to pray or to study scripture. Do we really believe our lives are busier than the life of Jesus? Some folks tell me there are just not enough hours in the day, but if something is really important, guess what, we find the time. Work is important, children are important, relationships are important, exercise is important. I am not saying God is not important, but too often we only find a moment for God on Sunday, or when the situation demands it. On the contrary, Jesus was in daily communication with his heavenly parent. The prayers were regular and they were expected. 

I am not much of a phone guy but Deb communicates with our daughter every day. Martina leaves work promptly at 5:00. Before the clock strikes 5:15 they are on the phone together. There is no emergency; often nothing new is shared. They are just checking in to share their daily adventures. Truth is they like to daily hear each other’s voice. I suspect our heavenly parent feels the same way.

        That said, I completely realize for most folks talking to God is a daunting task. To hear prayers in church, or meetings, or before meals seems natural. Those are done in the midst of many other folks who are participating in time-honored rituals. But to be alone with God, in a quiet place, with nothing to distract or interrupt, can be frightening. We are programmed to noise. And as much as we desire the quiet, perhaps we subconsciously fear it. Quiet time is inward time. Inward time is a time of examination when we risk seeing ourselves as God sees us. It exposes our potential, our weaknesses, our gifts, our deficiencies, our dreams and even our nightmares. Quiet time reveals the one who knows us better than we know ourselves.

        Rodney Crowell, one of my favorite dashboard poets, sings:

                It’s time to go inward and take a look at myself.

                It’s time to make the most of the time I’ve got left.

                Prison bars imagined are no less steel.

                It’s time to go inward, would you believe that I’m afraid

                To stare down the barrel of the choices I’ve made?

        The ghost of bad decisions makes mountains

Out of everything I feel.

It’s time to go inward, time to be still,

If I don’t do it now I don’t believe I ever will.

My mind is like a chatterbox

                Whose noise pollutes the pathways to my soul.

 

        Early in the morning, Jesus went out to find a quiet place to pray. Why of all people would Jesus find it necessary to daily check in with God before beginning his day? Why would Jesus have to examine his life, his mission, his calling? Certainly there could have been nothing but positive thoughts emulating from the one chosen by God. What would tempt him from the task at hand? What could make him uncertain about the road ahead? Unquestionably there must have been constant communication between the Son and the Father. And yet Jesus still finds a quiet moment to begin his day.  Why was it necessary? Maybe Jesus needed to give thanks, and say, “O Father in heaven, hallowed be thy name.”  Perhaps Jesus wanted to affirm that God’s plan remained his roadmap for the day.  “Thy kingdom come, thy will be done.” Maybe Jesus needed a moment to consider his pending adventures and be reminded that God would walk beside him. “Supply us with daily bread and protect us from temptation.” Perhaps Jesus knew that obstacles would certainly cross his path and wanted strength for the journey.  “Deliver us from the evil thoughts of those who confront us.”  Most of all I believe Jesus wanted to praise the one who was not just his Heavenly Father but the Parent of all creation. “For you are the power and the glory, today and forever more.” Could some of the strength, the steadfastness, the compassion, the consistency of Jesus evolved from the faithfulness of his prayer life?

        That makes me wonder, if the Son of God found prayer to be a critical part of his daily routine, why are we who call ourselves the children of God so slow to respond to our savior’s example? Maybe you never gave any thought to pursuing an active prayer life?  Maybe it is time management. Maybe it is fear of the quiet. Maybe it is fear of what God might say?  Maybe it is fear that nothing might be discovered. Maybe it is fear that too much might be discovered.  Maybe it is the fear of not knowing how to pray. Many reasons keep us from coming to God. None of them should be taken lightly. I only want to share this one little insight. I have known a number of folks who are intensely faithful in their prayer life. I have read the prayers and commentaries of people who are faithful in their prayer life.  None of them suggest it is a waste of time or a disappointing experience. All of them say it is a discipline that takes time and energy to perfect. But none have regretted the journey because they all affirm that the peace of God, which passes all understanding, guards their heart and their thoughts. There may be untamed and unmanageable feelings, there may be bitterness and even hatred, there may be anxiety brought on by nothing in particular, there may be some strange or foreboding disaster that does not yet appear. Through all of this, their overwhelming hunger for God underscores all the ambitions, dreams and restlessness of a churning spirit. They know that the peace of God, which passes all understanding, will guard their hearts and thoughts.

        Thomas Merton spent the first 27 years of his life in turmoil and confusion. He spent his last 27 years in prayer. Merton observed, “Prayer is a conversion of our entire self to God. One cannot enter into prayer without an inner upheaval that breaks our routine, and liberates our heart from the preoccupation of our daily business. This is why so few people apply themselves seriously to prayer. They are afraid something they cannot control might happen. And they are right. Truth rises from the courage to silence the day and open our hearts to the quiet presence of the Word.”

How did Merton find such serenity and such confidence?  He followed the example of his Lord. Early every morning, while it was still dark, he found a quiet place to pray.

        May we all be blest with such faith and discipline.

       

                     

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